Here’s a fun picture for you guys. It’s the pros-and-cons list I made for quitting freelancing and taking a full-time virtual job around March and April of this year:
The column on the left for “Why I should keep freelancing,” is very, very short. Because when I wrote this list (And when I was considering the end of my freelancing stint and interviewing for full-time virtual jobs) I was oppressed by my fears of the future. Fears of risk. Fears of retirement. Fears of maternity leave (no, I’m not pregnant). I was dog tired and burnt out. And terrified.
But the best part is the part you don’t see.
I was thinking about quitting a month before I closed my first five-figure month.
Between May 1st and 31st of this year, I invoiced more than $13,000 of freelance writing work. I worked my butt off because I felt better. I worked my butt off because I switched gears and work for amazing, motivating people now. And I worked my butt off because when I was deep in the spiral of terror, fear, and failure, I decided to keep going.
As insulting as it is to my business plan, I’m probably just as surprised as you are because the only way I got through it was to put my head down and work through it.
Risk is scary and real. Risk is crippling. And it doesn’t always matter what you want to do or how you wish you could feel. What matters is who you turn to, how you move on, and what fills you up and helps you get through it. And if you build a life on the counsel of good, wise people and give the rest to God, I’m learning that it will work out in the end.