Freelancing doesn’t leave a lot of time to sit back and reflect (unless of course you finish your month’s work on the 4th of the month…). But it’s so important to reflect, for several tangible reasons:
- You get a sense of progress
- You can point at things you’re grateful for
- You can see connections between seemingly unrelated things
With that in mind, here are a few things I’d like to toot my horn about in a non-prideful, totally moral-building way:
Life After Teaching
Can you believe I was a teacher five years ago? I started out here (super high hand gesture) and I landed here (points to butt). I made it 2.5 years before I figured out that the burned out feeling I had was not normal, natural, or okay, even if everyone around me thought it was.
The only thing that teaching taught me is that I didn’t want anyone else to feel the way I did. So I wrote a book about it.
Life After Teaching is 60+ pages of my most unfiltered advice and honest opinions. It’s everything I used to get out of teaching, find a new career, and begin the emotional journey of leaving behind an emotional career. I was proud when I finished it and I’m proud every time I navigate to the website or see a sale go through my PayPal account.
Okay, okay, this isn’t going to be about how cute he is, even though that’s obvious. And it’s not about how “together” I must be to make it through the dating process and “land” a husband (though surviving the wedding might be its own accomplishment). From a purely selfish perspective, I’m proud of getting together with JHubbs because it might be the most obvious example of my growth as a human over time.
Growing up and into college, I was super opinionated and rather prideful about all of my opinions. If your music taste, movie taste, or [insert anything here] taste wasn’t mine or if you couldn’t walk me through your reasoning for something, I was all kinds of judgemental. But then came JHubbs.
Silverchair-listening, Goosebumps-reading JHubbs in all his tiny, pleated, khaki-shorted glory. I’m so grateful that “something clicked” and I was able to open up to his way of thinking and seeing the world. It’s not like we switched minds, but he definitely did a number on me that has helped me become the person I am today—thankfully a very different person than I was then.
Okay, I guess that was a given. But I’m still really grateful and proud to be freelancing. My favorite quote of my life might be when JHubbs was talking me through a stressful freelancing time and he told me he was proud of me that I was doing something that people weren’t supposed to be able to do.
To me, that means that even when I doubt myself I can still make it happen when it needs to happen. The rest of my life will just be trying to channel that strength to make it happen consistently without the highs and lows that can also come with freelancing.
And beyond being “financially successful” (which I would love to consider myself some day), the sheer force of will required to keep my schedule and work ethic at 100 percent every day and every month makes me feel awesome sometimes.